eilias

Thu, 19 Mar 2009 03:10:23 GMT

Well well well...

Haven't been here for a while. Though, I have my reasons.
And right now. I'm back. At least for a short time, because I have something to get off my chest.
I have been lied in bed for the past 4 hours trying to get an early night, though it obviously didn't work... And so I peruse the interwebs. Of course, I went to facebook. Which seems to be consuming my life these days. The days here at uni spent with no TV means chloe is a very bored lady.
But I digress...
I became bored of facebook, as I usually do, and decided to make the fatal, fatal mistake of reading back through my livejournal entries.
And now I'm sat here.
2:57AM.
Sad
Nostalgic.
Basically, I wish I still spoke to the people I used to be close to on here. I had my reasons for disappearing, and I'm sure a few people had theirs too. But It just makes me so upset that I lost some good friends in the process.

It also dawned on me, that I'm 20 this year. Well actually, in 2 months. I don't feel 20. Already I feel older than I should, christ. It isn't good really, is it?
I'm enjoying uni, don't get me wrong. But theres still something missing. I don't feel homesick at all, I don't feel I need a relationship, I have plenty of good friends. So what's missing? What's making me feel less than happy?
I know what it is, though.
I came to uni, across the country. To start my life off. On my own, as a young adult. To get my Independence. To grow in confidence. To study a subject that fascinates me and that I'm passionate about. I came to shed my skin, come out of my shell, and start life.
The only thing is.... I'm still me.
I'm still the painfully shy girl, the clumsy one. The person who manages to make a tit out of herself at any given opportunity. A person who gets so nervous over the slightest thing, so much so she makes whoever she speaks to feel umcomfortable. I'm still her. I haven't become a new person. It won't just happen like that. And yes, I've grown in confidence slightly, but it's the only thing holding me back. I just can't seem to shed this. And it's really making me sad.

So now, I'm wide awake, at this time in a morning, feeling lonely and wallowing in self-pitty. A good start to the day.

I don't even know if anyone reads this anymore. I just needed to write things down.

Sun, 12 Oct 2008 15:45:28 GMT

Stolen frommm lorcasnovena

Go to urbandictionary.com and type in your answer to each question in the search box, then write the FIRST definition it gives you.

1.) Your name?
A friendly girl with a nice ass who is loved by everyone! She is a hot person, no girls have any problems with her and all the guys want to have hot, mad, steamy sex with her.

Chloe is so nice. She gets along with everyone

2.) Your age?
the sexiest age that there is and the sexiest females get married at this age.

3) One of your friends?
The other name for a "Legendary Hot Female from North Yorkshire"

4.) What should you be doing?
A punishment given to students by evil teachers after the students have already put in 7 hours of hard labor.

5.) A color?

es... it is most definitely referring to the marijuana... and also, upon occassion, any substance with similar uses. too, properly, of course, it is a golfing term, but that;s really not very much fun, now is it?

'yo, where da green at?'

6.) Hometown?

[This one wasn't the first one but it's the most accurate]:

The shit hole of England. In between the arse cheeks or Liverpool and Manchester this hardarse town loves to fuck. With the highest teen pregnacy rate by percentage in the Uk and the Uk has the highest in Europe makes Wigan a town for Pedos

"Look at her is she fat or just from Wigan?"

7.) Month of your birthday?

cool; sexy; hot

i am so may

8.) Last person you talked to?

1. A femail friend with small or non-existant mammaries
2. A person who lives in the same flat as you.

1.
What do you think of Emma?
She's flatmate
2.
I'm going for a beer with my flatmates.

9.) Your nickname?

1) v. to fall flat on your face

2) v. to accidently (or purposely) chew on a penis right before ejaculation in order to mix blood and semen, creating the "strawberry shortcake"

1) I was walking down locust walk the other day and I pulled a seej!

2) Yo dude, I was getting with this girl last night and she tried to seej me, so I beat the shit out of her.

Well, that was fun ! :) In other news, for anyone that's interested in what's going on in my life right now, here you go, IN BULLET POINT FORM.

My student loan is vastly decreasing and I'm going to be a waif by christmas time.
Last night I got horrendously pissed and it was the best night ever.
My course is going amazingly well, I actually fucking love getting up in a morning to go and GET EDUCATED. This is so unlike me that it's scary, however I've never actually studied anything I adore doing before.
People here aren't used to northerners and I'm getting the piss ripped out of me right left and centre. It's okay though, I'm witty.
Today I had to go out and take photographs of randomers. This, is actually the hardest thing to do fucking EVER and I'm not looking forward to having to do it again. People don't like cameras and I almost got twatted earlier : (

I should really post some pictures or something. I'll do it in a bit mebbeh.

I don't really have much else to say, I'm merely updating out of sheer boredom. :)

Sun, 21 Sep 2008 11:29:26 GMT

I know I keep saying this, but I really need to dust this thing off every now and then. And today is the day becausee...

OH HAI THIS IS MY FIRST POST FROM UNI.

And yes, this is terrifying ! :O I moved in yesterday. Things are running smoothly though so far, well, if you don't count we've got a sink that leaks and the cooker exploded already.
My housemates seem nice, we haven't all been out yet, I think thats going to be the plan for tonight though. :)

I suppose I'd better explain myself. Well, after I was rejected from the first university I applied to, I eventually got another interview for My second choice, which was here! Obviously I got offered a place, and here I be. I'm studying photography & video. I really cannot stress how much fucking paperwork and arsing around is included in applying to university, I mean I wasn't expecting it to be a walk in the park but I can assure you that If I see another form anytime soon I will fucking kill someone.

I'm so excited for freshers week ! I really need to get pissed. Mmmm, 23p cider. Awesome stuff.

Hmm, what else is there to tell ? Oh yeah, this fucking computer. I had to buy a mac, oh my god I hate it. Jesus titty christ. I just want to right click everything, I've had to remove my brain and turn it around to use this fucking thing. I'm sure I'll get used to it though. Buying this thing actually insured that I am now in debt before I've even started my fucking course. Oh well !

How is everyone ? TELL ME! I've been such a crap LJ person recently I have no idea what's going on.

I'll be posting my work on here I'm sure, when I eventually get to start it hah. I can't wait.

I can't wait to get into the swing of things.... BRING ON THE PARTAYS !!!!!!1111oneee

Right now though, I need to go shopping and buy food because I litrally have none. -Withers-

Fri, 18 Jul 2008 18:25:35 GMT

My jaw hurts from chewing.

In other news, I am insanely bored.

Sun, 01 Jun 2008 17:15:19 GMT

Wow.
I turned 19 yesterday.

I'm not in a good place right now. Meh !
I went to watch the sex and the city film yesterday
It was actually amazing.

God I need to update more
but it appears my brain has decided to stop functioning correctly.

Sun, 18 May 2008 17:50:03 GMT

Comment and I will:

1. Tell you why I befriended you.
2. Associate you with something -random, a song, a colour, a photo, etc.
3. Tell you something I like about you.
4. Tell you a memory I have of you.
5. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
6. Tell you my favourite user pic of yours.
7. In return, you must post this in your LJ

EIGHT

Thu, 15 May 2008 22:10:23 GMT

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FIVE

Sat, 10 Nov 2007 17:16:22 GMT

Hi everyone :)
Wow ! I've been so unbelievably Busy, with a capital B ! Hah.
My college course is a lot of hard work but I LOVE it ! It's perfect for me. The first part of the course was over last week, and yesterday we had our results back from the first section:- turns out I'm doing fantastically so YAY!! :D
I've just started studying the photography part of the course, [which I have been eagerly awaiting for a long time!], and already I know that it's defiantly what I'm going to specialize in. It's just what interests me- plus it's so much fun XD!

I thought I'd show you guys a few pieces of my work I did in my first lesson.
They're photo-grams, so no cameras were used obviously ! Just photographic paper & a light.
I know they're not exactly the bee's knees, but I had fun making them. :) Take a look if you like :D

Aside from that, not much has been happening at all.
I've been working, mostly. And struggling with many other things, but I won't go into that here. Let's just say I haven't been the happiest of bunny's recently. But I'm getting there ! I'm trying to keep my focus on the things that are important to me, my friends, my boyfriend, my family, my college work :- too keep my mind off silly things that are, well, just silly. :)

How has everyone else been? I've missed everyoneee! I really need to find time to come on here more. :(
& I'll be catching up with all your journals tomorrow !

FOUR

Sat, 01 Sep 2007 14:44:57 GMT

"Rich"

A new picture I just posted on deviant art. I couldn't sleep and so decided to play around with light and different colours :) I like it, but I think it could be better. I'll probably re-try again, like I always do until I get it exactly how I want it :P

In other news I'm really excited to start college again ! :O
I'm starting an art course this time, it's only a year and it's pre- degree. It seems like SO much fun !! I really can't wait >_< And then next year it's off to uni ! Which is a terrifying yet exciting thought. -Jumps around- :D.
I got my results for my fashion course that I've just completed through the post a few weeks ago, my final mark was: Merit Merit Distinction. Which I'm very happy about, as I though I'd do a hell of a lot worse ! And I can't believe I got a Distinction !! That is just madness! I'd never expect to get that high a mark, so needless to say I'm quite proud of myself! :D

THREE

Sat, 01 Sep 2007 14:36:12 GMT

So heres a photo I took of a lovely little Toad I found in my back garden this week. He kept so still ! Probably becasue he was frightened to death though ... :P !

TWO

Tue, 14 Aug 2007 15:32:17 GMT

So I went to blue planet aquarium with the family on the 3rd of july, where I got to stroke the stingrays ! :O However I've only just got around to loading the complete set of photos onto my flickr, haha !
They were all taken with my canon 400D :D

The stingrays kept poking they're noses out of the water and saying hello ! :D

That's me stroking a stingray... not the most amazing picture but it was bloody hard to take with two wet hands trying not to drop the camera!

He was the most arkward fish to take a picture of, ever.

He just wouldn't stay still at all!

I had soo much fun ! Fish are so beautiful. Some photos aren't that good, And I'm going to justify myself by saying fish are really fast and hard to take pictures of :O !

ONE

Tue, 14 Aug 2007 15:04:25 GMT

Hi everyone ! I hope you're all well :D
I thought it was time for a change of user name, my old one was just not me at all anymore, and so I decided to change it from rancid_placenta to eilias. :)
Here I'll be posting all my artwork, that includes photographs, paintings, sketches, drawings and digital art ! :) I'm trying to do a lot more of each now, But I'm still an extremely lazy procrastinator, unfortunately :(
I've been slacking with live journal a LOT recently, but so has everyone else it seems... but never fear ! This is merely a place for me to have all my art & continual rambling combined ! What more could anyone ask for ? ;P
Oh, and I also have flickr! In case you wanted to check that out too ;D !
So! Drop by, say hello, I'd love to know how everyone is :)
xx